As I described my current situation to a friend who wondered – I don’t want to talk about it; I am in repair mode! … This is part of an interaction with someone who had contacted me after almost four years to re-touch a piece I had written about, “Falling out of Love”. This friend did a fabulous analysis of the piece back then. There was actually a reason for that write up - a very mean reason! :( ... So you won’t believe my surprise when that interaction which had occurred about four years back, turned up in my inbox a few days back! What timing, I thought. What surprised me even more was my fear to revisit the piece. I did not want to read it. Have I become and emotional coward? This reaction was so “not me”.
God finds a way to talk to you if you really have faith. I always gloated about being his most fearless child … He must be frustrated with who I have become! … This renewed interaction where this friend is making me analyze all the points is perhaps just that. Making me break my boundaries and venture into those spots I have become so fearful of. Dear friend, you are reading this… thank you! I have faith that you are God-sent because only he is capable of such good timing.
Project: to resuscitate my super-adventurous soul! Stop being such a coward because - a coward dies a million deaths a day and the brave lives a million breaths a day! I choose to live!
Reminds me of Ghalib’s “mujhey kya bura tha marna, agar ek baar hota.”
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I have bigger worries now!
Yesterday, I hit the "next blog" button on the toolbar on top of this page and to my surprise which transformed into shock which transformed into disbelief combined with some dismay and eventually effected my writer-ego quite a bit -- it was a blog of a man who likes to take nude pictures of self!
Why O Why have the Google Gods put my rated PG blog in the same line up as a Rated R / X Rated blog? Who have I upset with my poetry and music and an occasional "Oh Romeo" ranting?
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BTW - this Monkey is asking a very valid question: "why is there no mouse flavored cat-food?"
1 thoughts:
Jasleen, Had you turned around and looked when you were writing this blog entry you would not have written this "Dear friend, you are reading this… thank you!". You could have thanked at that time itself!!
Anyway, I accept your thanks!
I respect your faith in god and believe that I am God-sent because only he is capable of such good timing--
Well, I don't know if God has created the situation for "meeting me to you" or "you meeting to me" -- Only he knows
A friend.
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